Your busy mind is beautiful (& other reminders...)
Notes on hesitation and what blocks me from being mindful... (+ lots of specials)
I’ve been thinking a lot about the things that block me from tending to myself, and most of them are fear- and shame-related.
Blocking myself - hesitating on the things that matter most
What is this hesitation I find... When I hold myself back from doing something I deeply want
Like reading an article that might get me "too inspired"
Like helpful journaling prompts that I might not be in the "right mindset for"
Like a meditation practice where I don't know "what to expect"
As if it's not the right time or setting,
As if these aren't the most important things,
And so I flip to something "easier" to try to satisfy myself more instantly
Like flipping through emails or IG stories, or looking at books on a shelf instead of actually reading them
A part of me would rather stay blocked,
A part of me wants to wait for the "right time" or mood,
And while sometimes planning things for a designated time helps,
It's this habitual hesitation that keeps me from fulfilling my truest needs and desires that lie behind...
I feel hurt when I realize there's this part of me that doesn't trust I'm enough in each moment to partake in my wants and needs without avoidance.
But I swear, every time I let myself dive in
Every time I let myself break through the surface of self-doubt
And swim into the depths of what gives not instant gratification but a slower and truer culminative satisfaction
It's worth it.
Some Reminders for you:
your busy mind is beautiful
you’re not meditating wrong
your resistance to meditate or practice mindfulness makes so much sense
presence is a practice
your mental spirals are actually cycles
you deserve to take a minute for yourself
you don’t have to sit still on a cushion to meditate
your thoughts are just perspectives to work through in reflection
On Cyclical Mindfulness
I'm gonna be super honest... I'm not teaching this because I've perfected it (does that even exist?),
I'm teaching it because I'm right there with you in the social media spiral, feeling like an emotional sponge - but able to come back to my center because I see the patterns in it all.
I'm teaching Cyclical Mindfulness because I know I'm good at synthesizing and bridging systems and practices and experiences - filtering them through my own lens into something culminative and visually grounding (that's how I created Cycles Journal).
I'm sharing this because I'm human and I needed something that brought together the many layers of my cycle tracking and mindfulness practices
I needed to tie together all of the intersections of contemplative practice, meditative learnings & somatic awareness; of reflective journaling and wholistic healing...
I've come up with this framework because it's what I needed to be visually grounded & guided in my multi-sensory awareness.
And when I come back to center through this practice, I realize I don't know it all, but I do know enough to share this with you and trust it will have an supportive impact.
I'm hosting our first ever Practice Circle in July - free for anyone who is part of the Cyclical Mindfulness Self-Paced Course.
So get the Cyclical Mindfulness Course or the Bundle with Cycles Journal 2025 (which gets you more for less) to expand your personal support toolkit now, when the world needs you whole the most. <3
I hope to see you there,
xoxo,
Gratefully Connected,
Rachael Amber (they) of Cyclical Roots
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