Stop trying to "make" sense and just Sense (this equinox)
Eclipse season, equinox, embodiment, entanglement, embededness, expectations, enoughness, equity, equilibrium, excess, elaboration, ecosystems, evolution…
It’s (just about) Libra season, and the air is crisp, it's feeling like fall. Very venusian, very Empress / Justice. 🍂🍃🍁
When I went on a walk through the woods today, my cramps were soothed by my mind would not stop.
I got deep in analysis paralysis mode as I do, where I just wanna know and understand everything and get stuck in overthinking (is it Jupiter on my ascendant? Is it my neurodivergent brain? Is it my Virgo cluster of Mars, Chiron and MH? Or is it internalized colonialism? Maybe all of the above!)
The question Ive been contemplating a lot this summer resurfaced, right in time with the ending of this season: “does this make sense?”
No, like actual sense in my senses, not just logically in my head…
I feel like when we ask that we're thinking of logical sense, but when did that separate from intuitive and embodied sense?
It's when I was on retreat and after a meditation I realized/drew this aspirational reminder:
The answers always seem clearer or simpler when I actually surrender to my senses and let them guide me.
& Today the message clarified in a very direct way, sort of like my guides / the autumn air trying to get it to actually stick with a sweet little tough love statement;
Stop trying to “make” sense and just SENSE.
It's so simple yet so difficult to remember.
Why is the mind so magnetic?
Why do we try to make sense when we already have it?
Are we so overstimulated that we forget it's not something we have to search outside ourselves for?
Can I contemplate, analyze and understand through my senses instead of something removed from them?
The brain works better embodied, embedded in the sensorial.
I want to simplify into my senses.
I need to be patient with myself and not expect perfection.
It's an everyday practice, and on this equinox I pray for balance.
I think sometimes I resist my senses because we're taught not to trust them and also since I have heightened nervous system reactions.
But there is a true sense beneath it all, always.
My nervous system needs my nurturance and I'm learning to slow down and work with it, bit by bit, without shame or judgment.
So I will keep asking & feeling into:
What helps me notice my senses?
When/where do I feel safest to sense?
What messages do even my unpleasant senses have for me?
What in my life can I surrender or simplify to make more space for sense-allowing?
I invite you to reflect on these too this equinox.
If you’d like, journal, pull cards, or ask for answers in your dreams or meditation.
I don't set intentions on the seasonal shifts - I just let myself listen, reflect and be in-between.
It's a transitional time, so be gentle with yourself and remember you deserve time to just be, sense and exist. 💚
In sensory solidarity,
🖐🏽🌿🌤️👁️🌊🫀☁️🧠
Rachael Amber
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